Relient K - When I Go Down LYRICS

I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much
to think of this
so from my thoughts
i will exclude
the very thing that
i hate more than
everything is
the way i'm powerless
to dictate my own moods

i've thrown away
so mahy things
that could've been much more
and i just pray
my problems go away
if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

when i go down
i go down hard
and i take everything i've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when i go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
i think, if only i had fought them

if and when i can
clear myself of this clouded mind
i'll watch myself settle down
into a place where peace
can search me out and find
that i'm so ready to be found

i've thrown away
the hope i had in friendships
i've thrown away
so many things that could
have been much more
i've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and i just pray
my problems go away
if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

any control i thought i had
just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience
shakes it's head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
i confess
i'll blams all this on my selfishness
yet you love me
and that consumes me
and i'll stand up again
and do so willingly